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That nauseating feeling...
alpha_two
So, officially I've been looking for a job for a week, doing the usual "update linkedin, monster, workopolis", etc. And at the same time, I've been rapidly brushing up my programming skills, ramping up my interview stuff, etc...

…and at the same time, it's been a week of non-stop anxiety attacks. Every morning, I wake up dreading the numerous calls and interactions on things I don't want to deal with. Where do I start…

Recruiters: Some have been pleasant to work with, others, not so much. There's the "hey we need to fit you into a hole here, so just say yes"; and there's the one's that "butter you up" with "you're one of the best out there". Guys, let's not kid ourselves: if you don't understand the technology you're evaluating me on, how could you even make that statement? Do you know "XCode", "SDK", and "Objective C"? If you're breaking them up like that, I know for a fact you don't know what you're talking about already. Then can I even be sure what you're looking for matters?

Interviewing/Technical Tests: Maybe it's been too long for me since I had to do technical tests, but I don't know what the expectations for these things are anymore. My time of interview programming jobs within games has always scared me with the numerous technical questions, and all I can do right now is study up in an academic way. I know it isn't enough (and it doesn't feel like it), but I'm not sure what's left.



I don't know if it's an age thing, or that I just worry too much, but it's taking it's toll on me. Within the last week, I've lost my appetite, have been having trouble sleeping, and constantly panic when the phone rings. I'm not sure if there's a proper fix to this, but I don't know if this can go on any longer...